Should be Creating

I have been having issues with my mind. Art blocks. Writer blocks. Thought blocks. Things that make me slow down my moving forward. For whatever set amount of time. Could be a few hours. Could be a few days. Could be a year or more. Depending on topic. Depending on importance. Depending on life. It all has a breakdown. It all has to be broke down. But I get it, and I am still trying to figure how to get past it.

I feel like there has been a vice on my creativity process. I cannot get anything to get me motivated enough to create. Draw, Paint, Design. None of these are appealing to me at the moment. That is not a good thing, because by nature I am an Artist. It's what I have been gifted to do. Among other things. But Art is what I do for a living as well as for personal interest. So I need to keep creating so I will keep advancing.

I try to write, or journal, or blog. Nothing comes out. And when it does it is all jumbled and scatter brained. My focus is not there. I have the ideas in my head. I see the way they should come out. But they come out more like loose references and brainstorming instead of sentences and paragraphs.

I read different books and articles. Two or three times in a row at one sitting. Simply because my brain is not processing the readings. I am scanning the page, looking over the words. I am not however taking in the words and processing the story. So I catch myself, stop whatever it is I am thinking about and start over. And another time. And another time.

This occurs more than I enjoy. I know I will get out of it. I have to. It is my job to create. It is my mission to create. It is my gift to create. I just need to do it. It can be hard when you are your own worse critic, and the doodles you start out with look more like useless lines in your own view.

People are more interested in why your creating, than what your creating. But if you are not making a creation, you will have no reason to talk, nor a why to talk about in the first place.

Advice I gave to a friend of mine in his apprenticeship: "You should be creating something right now!"